Puasa Datang Lagi. :)

Heee, setel dh sahur. Subuh pn dh setel, tp xleh tdo blik sbb japg nk p hantar budak2 2 p sekolah...haih!~ Semalam time siap2 nk Isyak, dorg gaduh lg. Haihhhhhhh, ingtkn nk ade a good start for this puasa tp ade je x kne. Kate setan sume kne rantai, tp org tua 2 blh je naik angin mcm kne rasuk setan. Manusia2, x paham aku. Mintak2 la aku blh control baran ni time bulan nk kumpul pahala ni.

Haha, last2 smpai sudah x tulis dh entry Holiday in JB tu. Dah la, malas nk tulis. Cte panjang2 pn sume dh xde makne lg. Betul2 nekad ye kamu meninggalkn sy? Am I that boring that u gladly left me, literally just like that? Aiyo, sumpah x larat pikir sbb ape! Seriously, kalau betul la dh xnk dh boring sume, ckap jela bgtau. Xdela susah2 aku. Otak xpayah penat pikir byk2, hati pn xpayah sakit bile mengenangkn die bt cmtu. Hadoi, muff2! I know dh, long time ago that u r such a selfish person tp xkn kot smpai mcm ni. Sengaja sibukkan diri? Dh boring dgn sy tp xnk cakap n biar sy perasan sndiri? Ya Allah, sampai nye la hati. If I were u, I wont do such thing for the sake of the memories and all. Xkan la all the love words, all the perhatian, all the sweet words and all everything x bwak ape2 meaning to u muff? Ikhlas ke u muff slame ni? Seriously, I wont do such thing if I were u muff, sbb bile rse nk buat x sampai hati sbb I know what we both shared was real. But I guess u dont think of it that way kn? :(

Reality sucks. Kadang2 x pcy things have gone this far. X pcy n xnk pcy sbb everything seems so real. Mcm u betul2 ikhlas. God, I may be the most forgetful person, tp there's memories yg aku ingt. And again, it all seems sooo real. Am I that fragile that anyone can came into my heart and crushed them all they want? Sumpah x paham.

Enough la abt him, aku dok kalut pikiaq dia ntah2 dia lgsg x ingt aku. Haha, how ironic life can be! Tp lepas terawih smlm, gatal je tgn nk text him nk wish happy fasting. Since I've texted almost everyone on my contacts list, including Wan n Didie. Surprisingly, Wan la the first person yg reply my text. Remind pasal terawih. Thank God, after all that happened, I'm not losing any of our friends. Heee. Back to him, nk sgt text ni. Hadoi. So I asked for Phat's opinion. She said no la of course, die cakap x payah nk bazir mase ingt org yg lgsg x ingt kite. Hmm, betul gak kn. Ditambah pulak dgn ego aku ni, so I've decided xnk text sbb direct contact sgt. Segan+malu+ego=dduk diam2.

Tapiiii, that doesn't mean aku xleh wish lgsg kt die! haha. Blh wish thru blog, die ade bce atau x terpulang. Yang penting aku puas hati dpat wish, n my ego pn satisfied dgn cara ni. Strong LOSER I am! Hehehe. So yeah, muff~ Happy Fasting, selamat menunaikan ibadah puasa! Hope you doing well there. I miss you so much, but surprise2 I'm still alive!~ Wish you all the best.

Huwarghhhhhhh! Mengantoknye! Nk tido balik la, budak2 pn dh anta g skolah. Lepas ni bru nk tulis entry baru kalau rajin, ade story baekkkk punya. Haha.

Happy Fasting, dear me. ^.^