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it's been a while since the last post...malas nk tulis, byk bende nk gtau sebenarnye, tp tu la...MALAS...
hmmm...so, me m my boyfren...still going on, up n down...been thru many3 things...much to my own disbelief...
so, skang ni, i buat part-time job kat tmpat die keje, restoran seri melayu...ade la cite die tu cmne blh end up part time kt ctu...rm5 per hour...ok, so the next whole story nie mmg ade kaitan ngan cte part time ni...

ok, so...the first day dtg tu my bf brought me to meet the service supervisor kt ctu...my bf is a steward supervisor, so xde kne mengena la ngan die, as i amik part time as a waitress...ok, so i met the guy. the name of dis guy is dzul...he's kinda cute actually, that what was i thought at first...n he didn't know that my bf is my bf...ok, so he gave uniform to change to, n waited for me in front of the girl's locker room. ok so this n that going on, n without me knowing it, we both kinda flirt with each other n frankly, i kinda enjoy it...then 'the first-time' part time ended, n so did the flirt. back home, i analized his acts towards me n i have dis instinct that he actually liked me! (talking bout women's instinct here)...but yea, i completely ignored it as i have a bf n nak setia la ngan die la ni...
then the part time goes on n on n on n on...n so the flirt, n i think i have a crush on him...seriously, n i know die pn cmtu, it's so obvious la...
dis guy is totally, completely different with my bf. i mean, my bf is very rough, bahasa pn kasar, kuat jeles, etc...dis guy, otoh is very soft-spoken, n this n that...hehehe, now i sounded berat sebelah...i mean, rite now, i have many feelings inside me...i mean, when i'm with the other guy, i completely forgot about my bf n enjoy my time with him n he makes me feel what a waste of time i've had with my bf b4, when i'm with my bf, i think about the other guy n wonder how i got stuck with him, but when i'm alone, all by myself, i miss my bf terribly n wanted to be next to him...it is so fucking confusing u know...i can even understand myself...sometimes when i'm with the other guy, i even thought of dumping my bf...but still, i'm a sane person n it is stupid to leave my bf whom i know for almost a year, n i know everything about him, for a guy whom i barely know n just got to know for shortly two weeks...doesn't make sense rite...???

hmmm, i'm sooo freaking confused rite now...but i do know dat i love him so very much...
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