Wednesday, January 13, 2010

blehhh! <3






ini la die muka org yg slalu sgttttt menyakitkn jiwa aku! benci gler dowh kt die...tp mkin benci mkin syg lak...cmne 2?
| 1st pic ni mse ktorg bru pas hbis part time kt Yayasan Tun Razak...haha. ade wedding event n he took the rose n put it in my bun. then i have this stupid idea...how would he looks like with a rose behind his ear?
2nd pic, we were on our way to his place...n it was raining heavily! so we stopped for a moment n i lend him my sweater...owh, sweet!
3rd pic, i dun remember exactly...pkul 5 pg kot ni, ktorg lepak2...haha xde keje...

ke-careless-an yg teramat!


baru blik drpd kedai 'mcm2 ada'...hadui, tensyen la...aku dh menghilangkn RM50 yg mama bg tuk beli brg2...hanjeng tul! citenye bermula begini~~~~~


lepas dinner td, aku ingt nk g kedai jap nk beli manila card yg lecturer design suh beli tuk bt file...tp hati ni rse mcm liat sgtttt nk g, mlas semacam je...aku pn trun bwah sbb mama pnggil...aku pn xingt npe die pnggil 2, stupid short term memory! pastu adik aku yg siot ckit ni pn trun n paksa2 aku g kedai sbb die nk g bli marker pen n pembalut buku...aku mmg malas tahap langit ketujuh ni tp sbb minah sengal ni paksa2 aku pn mengalah...mama bg rm50 n suh aku pkai jimat2...smpai la d kedai d mne bermulanye tragedi january ini. kuar2 kete je aku dh lock kete sume n menuju ke kdai tsebut bsame2 ngan c sengal...aku masih ingt + lupa2 ckit yg aku de pgg dt 2 kt tgn ni ha...aku lipat 4 xsilap aku, utk memudahkn aku memegangnye. yg aku ni pn bangang cm haram, xnk smpan dt n kunci kete dlam poket..xtau la setan mne yg bt aku lpe ni...mle2 temankn c sengal pilih pembalut buku, pastu aku msuk dlam kedai tawaf2 kedai 2 sbb c sengal tjmpe mmber die d tmpt kejadian. kemudian bdak sengal m'dapatkn aku d tgh2 kedai n kami pn trus memilih marker pen bsme2...tanpa aku sedar aku tlah tlpe trus ttg dt 2...dan d cni la kekagetan bmula...aku pksa c sengal blik cpat, aku xnk tlepas tgk cte Hwangjini kt channel303 tp dak sengal ni kecoh nk tgk itu, tgk ini, tgk pe lancau lg la...kemudian die mengalah kerana aku pcaya die tnmpak api2 kemarahan yg mbara2 ats kepala aku ni...pastu ble tbe babak2 nk bayar 2, aku pn seluk sne seluk cni hanya menyedari yg dt dh xde!!! adeh, cuaaakkkkkk! peluh2 ketakutan mula merembes d segenap inci bdan aku ni...seram siak! adeh, aku tnye dak sengal 2 duit mne, die pn bt muka kerek smbil ckap, eh mne de la, dengan awk la dt 2...ahhh, sudahhh...aku round satu kdai, check kotak manila card tu, 2,3 kali ulang alik crik kt kete, kputusan die msih sme, xjmpe jgk...hadui, aku dh dpat bygkn pe reaksi mama ble aku blik nnti...dgn berat hati n tenaga yg 50-50 sbb pnat crik dt 2, aku pn drive blik umah dgn hati yg pnuh bimbang...smpai d rumah aku trus mengkhabarkn kt mama ttg kehilangan tsebut. dan seperti djangkakn, mama pn mjerit "APERRRR? DT HILANGGGG??!!!!" teng, teng, tenggggg.......tpakse la tadah telinga dgr bebelan yg plg aku anti 2...smakin lme mdgr aku smakin panas, lalau aku memulakn pgaduhan dgn mama...mmg la aku salah, tp bnde dh jd perlu ke nk bt mcm aku bunuh org lak? aku pn naik tngga menuju ke bilik n trus mengunci bilikku...huh, tensyen sgt2 + guilty sgt2! aku pn xtau nk ngadu kt spe dgn tangkasnye aku amik fon n text pakwe kesayangan aku...ckit lme aku tnggu die xreply2 gak...aku dh mle naik hangin, last2 aku kol...lme ringing bru nk angkat babi ni...sekonyong2 mdgr suaranye marah pn hilang...aku mengharapkn die blh la support aku atau comfortkn aku, ni x lg bwak bgaduh ade! perbualan diakhiri dgn die ckap "aku fedup la dgn kau ni!" x ke pukimak perangai jantan mcm 2? die yg tgh menopos aku lak yg truk? ptutnye aku la fedup kt die sbb xsupport aku, ni tbalik kod la plak! sial haram jadah. mmpus kau la pakweku, aku ngah tensyen ni aku xlarat nk lyan perangai mengarut2 kau...ske hati kau la nk wat pape pn.mntak maaf TIDAK SAMA SEKALI. aku dh pnat asyik mengalah je, asyik kne bodoh je ngan kau. n now for the tenth thousand times in my life, aku menyesal ade relationship dgn die. i do love him for sure, but attitude die? a big NO NO!
whatever it is, aku tensyen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, January 04, 2010

hipo

lme xmenulis...saesangae! hmmm, daega chongmal michi ko gattae...na ottoekke?

its 3.59 am, n i cant sleep? why? nadoo molla yo. insomnia kot...tp menguap bgai nk rak, ngantoknye x...aigoo2...

feels like spilling everything but yet dun have any courage to say anything out loud...to be accurate, words are allll in my head but i juz dunno how 2 spill...haha, sng cte: malas! hehe

So, bt simple2 je sudehhh...here goes------>

life: ntah, mcm best mcm xbest...
study: skrg cuti sem, 11 of jan bru start blik...
love: on n off, mcm cibai! haha kidding la...
money: adeehhh, pokai thap gaban...
attitude: malas nk wat pape skrg ni, penyakit M menyerang!

pe lg ea...ishhh, xtau la!

but since new term nk start, like in a week...i want new shoes, new handbag n yg plg penting, new wardrobe! itu sume harussss ok...hmm, pe nk bt, nk survive...at times mcm malas nk catch up with this n that everything. u know how segi is, pnuh dgn manusia2 loaded yg hipokrit. loaded gler cm haram, muslim tp cre hdup cm mat saleh. msuk clas bt entrance cm celebrity; artis bru yg blagak popular pdhal smbong cm hanjeng pastu kcoh cte sal die tngkap jiwang ngan artis ni; anak VP yg talam dua muka tp org xpcy coz she loooks innocent wif her all-smiley bitchy face; pmpuan2 yg pkai bju xckup kain; pmpuan2 yg g mne2 mesti de rokok kt tgn cm jalang; jantan2 yg nmpak cm cool tp hampeh, mat2 negro yg tgk pmpuan cm leh tembus n bajet ensem, student yg leh ske2 ponteng claz sbb dorg de shooting la recording la modelling la pe lancau la...aigoo2, hdup2...n since aku hdup d tgh2 manusia sesat lg hipokrit ni, nk xnk aku kne jdik hipo gak! which i always felt gulty abt. lau xjdik half like them, i will definitely left behind...so ya know, i kinda have 2 act like them, be like them...

dh r, penat la.....nk tdo la, ngantok dh ni...SALAM!