Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
Well, I never saw it coming.*
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Daughtry - Over You
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Puasa Datang Lagi. :)
Heee, setel dh sahur. Subuh pn dh setel, tp xleh tdo blik sbb japg nk p hantar budak2 2 p sekolah...haih!~ Semalam time siap2 nk Isyak, dorg gaduh lg. Haihhhhhhh, ingtkn nk ade a good start for this puasa tp ade je x kne. Kate setan sume kne rantai, tp org tua 2 blh je naik angin mcm kne rasuk setan. Manusia2, x paham aku. Mintak2 la aku blh control baran ni time bulan nk kumpul pahala ni.
Haha, last2 smpai sudah x tulis dh entry Holiday in JB tu. Dah la, malas nk tulis. Cte panjang2 pn sume dh xde makne lg. Betul2 nekad ye kamu meninggalkn sy? Am I that boring that u gladly left me, literally just like that? Aiyo, sumpah x larat pikir sbb ape! Seriously, kalau betul la dh xnk dh boring sume, ckap jela bgtau. Xdela susah2 aku. Otak xpayah penat pikir byk2, hati pn xpayah sakit bile mengenangkn die bt cmtu. Hadoi, muff2! I know dh, long time ago that u r such a selfish person tp xkn kot smpai mcm ni. Sengaja sibukkan diri? Dh boring dgn sy tp xnk cakap n biar sy perasan sndiri? Ya Allah, sampai nye la hati. If I were u, I wont do such thing for the sake of the memories and all. Xkan la all the love words, all the perhatian, all the sweet words and all everything x bwak ape2 meaning to u muff? Ikhlas ke u muff slame ni? Seriously, I wont do such thing if I were u muff, sbb bile rse nk buat x sampai hati sbb I know what we both shared was real. But I guess u dont think of it that way kn? :(
Reality sucks. Kadang2 x pcy things have gone this far. X pcy n xnk pcy sbb everything seems so real. Mcm u betul2 ikhlas. God, I may be the most forgetful person, tp there's memories yg aku ingt. And again, it all seems sooo real. Am I that fragile that anyone can came into my heart and crushed them all they want? Sumpah x paham.
Enough la abt him, aku dok kalut pikiaq dia ntah2 dia lgsg x ingt aku. Haha, how ironic life can be! Tp lepas terawih smlm, gatal je tgn nk text him nk wish happy fasting. Since I've texted almost everyone on my contacts list, including Wan n Didie. Surprisingly, Wan la the first person yg reply my text. Remind pasal terawih. Thank God, after all that happened, I'm not losing any of our friends. Heee. Back to him, nk sgt text ni. Hadoi. So I asked for Phat's opinion. She said no la of course, die cakap x payah nk bazir mase ingt org yg lgsg x ingt kite. Hmm, betul gak kn. Ditambah pulak dgn ego aku ni, so I've decided xnk text sbb direct contact sgt. Segan+malu+ego=dduk diam2.
Tapiiii, that doesn't mean aku xleh wish lgsg kt die! haha. Blh wish thru blog, die ade bce atau x terpulang. Yang penting aku puas hati dpat wish, n my ego pn satisfied dgn cara ni. Strong LOSER I am! Hehehe. So yeah, muff~ Happy Fasting, selamat menunaikan ibadah puasa! Hope you doing well there. I miss you so much, but surprise2 I'm still alive!~ Wish you all the best.
Huwarghhhhhhh! Mengantoknye! Nk tido balik la, budak2 pn dh anta g skolah. Lepas ni bru nk tulis entry baru kalau rajin, ade story baekkkk punya. Haha.
Happy Fasting, dear me. ^.^
Friday, August 06, 2010
Truth Hurts. II
Adehhh, berdebarnye nk tau ape sbnrnye yg jd...
Ya Allah, nsib baik ade sorg hamba Allah ni yg sanggup bgtau all the truth. Walaupun agak kejam, tp nsib baik. Bodoh, aku diayam2 kn? Haha, lawaknye hidup.
Tapi ape sbnrnye yg hamba Allah ni tau? Asal susah sgt nk bgtau aku ape yg die tau? Berat sgt ke bnde ni? Damn, nervous sial aku. Perbualan ktorg terhenti takat 2 je...seksanye nk tunggu!
Lagi seksa nnti bile hamba Allah ni dh gtau...mintak2 la ape yg bakal die bgtau nnti x seperti yg aku dreaded. Fuck, this is getting me nervous. Uncertainty makes me wanna scream, and ripped my heart open, and bang my head to the wall. Argghh, damn it!
Ya Allah, nsib baik ade sorg hamba Allah ni yg sanggup bgtau all the truth. Walaupun agak kejam, tp nsib baik. Bodoh, aku diayam2 kn? Haha, lawaknye hidup.
Tapi ape sbnrnye yg hamba Allah ni tau? Asal susah sgt nk bgtau aku ape yg die tau? Berat sgt ke bnde ni? Damn, nervous sial aku. Perbualan ktorg terhenti takat 2 je...seksanye nk tunggu!
Lagi seksa nnti bile hamba Allah ni dh gtau...mintak2 la ape yg bakal die bgtau nnti x seperti yg aku dreaded. Fuck, this is getting me nervous. Uncertainty makes me wanna scream, and ripped my heart open, and bang my head to the wall. Argghh, damn it!
Truth Hurts.
Ouch, damn! Sakit sial. I just cannot believe a guy can be sooooo cruel. Kejamnye die!
I was stupid enough to believe him at the first place. Hadoi, buta hati betul! Nasib baik someone told me abt the truth, what really happened. Kalau x smpai skrg ni mesti aku masih lagi head over heels dgn die.
Tapi, susah nk percaya die sanggup sampai mcm tu skali. I mean, everything that had happened, xkan xde maksud ape2 bg die? All the love words, all the confessions, all the affections, all kisses, all hugs, even that THING! Takkan x bwak maksud ape2 lgsg?
Eeeee, kejam. Asal la yg aku ni bodoh sgt??? Ya Allah, beratnye dugaan! Nak buat ape ye skrg? Nasi dh jd bubur. Adehhhhh, kalau blh turn back time...
Seriously nk bt ape ye skrg ni? Confront die? Haram la die nk mengaku. Damn, I discovered the truth a little too late. Fucked up betul la. Alaaaa, nk bt ape ni? Nk text die ke tnye? Atau nk diam je? Mne blh diam je, mmg same2 salah...Tapi...shouldn't he at least be a little responsible? Alamak, ape nk bt ni? Seriously ape? X tau.
I was stupid enough to believe him at the first place. Hadoi, buta hati betul! Nasib baik someone told me abt the truth, what really happened. Kalau x smpai skrg ni mesti aku masih lagi head over heels dgn die.
Tapi, susah nk percaya die sanggup sampai mcm tu skali. I mean, everything that had happened, xkan xde maksud ape2 bg die? All the love words, all the confessions, all the affections, all kisses, all hugs, even that THING! Takkan x bwak maksud ape2 lgsg?
Eeeee, kejam. Asal la yg aku ni bodoh sgt??? Ya Allah, beratnye dugaan! Nak buat ape ye skrg? Nasi dh jd bubur. Adehhhhh, kalau blh turn back time...
Seriously nk bt ape ye skrg ni? Confront die? Haram la die nk mengaku. Damn, I discovered the truth a little too late. Fucked up betul la. Alaaaa, nk bt ape ni? Nk text die ke tnye? Atau nk diam je? Mne blh diam je, mmg same2 salah...Tapi...shouldn't he at least be a little responsible? Alamak, ape nk bt ni? Seriously ape? X tau.
Hidup.
Problems after problems after problems. Gosh, sabar la! Cuba la masalah dtg satu-satu. Senang sikit nk handle. Ini x, sekali harung sume. Haih penat!
Tapi bagus jugak ade masalah byk2, blh lupe Zul sekejap.
Bile time2 mcm ni, teringin nk call die. Nk sembang2, nk cte problems, nk mntak advice. Tp harapan jela. Conclusionnye, tanggung la problems ni sume sorg2. Xpela kot, susah2 dulu sorg2, senang2 kemudian ramai2. Dunia dunia.
Semoga dgn problems yg x habis2 ni, i'll be stronger than ever. Insyaallah. :)
Malam ni kalau rajin nk bt continuation of Holiday in JB. Kalau rajin la.
Tapi bagus jugak ade masalah byk2, blh lupe Zul sekejap.
Bile time2 mcm ni, teringin nk call die. Nk sembang2, nk cte problems, nk mntak advice. Tp harapan jela. Conclusionnye, tanggung la problems ni sume sorg2. Xpela kot, susah2 dulu sorg2, senang2 kemudian ramai2. Dunia dunia.
Semoga dgn problems yg x habis2 ni, i'll be stronger than ever. Insyaallah. :)
Malam ni kalau rajin nk bt continuation of Holiday in JB. Kalau rajin la.
Thursday, August 05, 2010
Holiday in JB ~ Continuation
Dh rse cm ngantok2 dh. Nk dekat kul 2am dh pun. Nnti esok la continue tulis kt blog ni.
Rindu dekat Zulhilmi. Damn. Terlajak perahu blh tarik, terlajak cakap cmne plak ea? Love you always baby.
Rindu dekat Zulhilmi. Damn. Terlajak perahu blh tarik, terlajak cakap cmne plak ea? Love you always baby.
Holiday ~ 2nd Day in JB.
Saturday.
2nd day di JB. Lepas beliau hantar balik pg 2, aku tdo dalam kul 7+ cmtu kot lau xsilap. Then bgn around 11 mcm 2 kot. Ke kul 10++ ea? Lebih kurg la. Walaupn dalam hati ade sedikit terasa sbb something yg beliau ckap sbelum masuk umah pg td, tp xpela. Malas la nk ungkit2 lg, kang beliau 2 majuk lg susah aku. Then kuar breakfast jap dgn Phat. Diba dgn Syooc x bangkit tdoq lg, so kite pegi dua org je. Bile balik umah mandi2 n siap2. Sbb Phat kate nk beli brg2 utk surprise bday Loloq malam ni. Biaselah aku, pas mandi siap awal2, mekap jap, bt rambut jap. Sume dh, tp budak2 ni x siap pape lg. Lagi2 Diba. Hampeh betul, lembap! Berjam siap.
Disebabkn malam 2 agak busy sbb byk preparation nk kne bt for the surprise, aku texted beliau ajak kuar jap petang 2 sbb malam 2 takut balik lmbat. X nak la ajak die kuar lewat2, kesian die. Penat lak kang. So siang 2 teman beliau lunch jap. Tapi...ade tapi jugak...ape la yg aku x puas hati lg ni...mse kuar 2 beliau ckap beliau xleh lme, xpela 2 aku blh pham sbb die keje. Tp yg x tahan 2 siap blh set time lg bpe lme nk kuar. Mne blh mcm 2, mcm x ikhlas je. Then mse makan beliau blik2 check time. Ehh, mcm terpaksa je. Ala sedihnye! Tp xpela, mungkin die x perasan kot die bt mcm 2. Walaupun beliau blh jd lebih peka dan sensitif thadap perasaan sy. Ntah asal, lunch kali ni mcm ade sikit boring. Die pn x byk cakap, diam je. Kurg eye-contact. N x tau la betul ke x, tp aku dapat rse mcm die cube elak everytime i tried to touch his hand. Perasaan aku je ke 2 ea? atau mmg betul mcm 2? Muke die mcm x excited je jmpe sy. Zul dh boring dgn i ke ea?
Sampai kt umah, sebelum kuar kete aku nk tnye something kt beliau. Tp soalan tu x blh nk kuar. Tsekat kt kerongkong, takut aku salah bg ayat n takut die salah interpret soalan tu. So sampai skrg soalan tu aku sorg je yg tau, n this question has been haunting me ever since. Adehhh, nk sgt tnye tp x blh. Takut. Segan.
Then beliau balik, smbung keje. Walaupun jmpe sekejapppp je, tp ok la 2 drpd x jmpe lgsg. Then kitorg 4 org kuar g beli brg2 utk surprise malam ni. Pegi Perling Mall beli cake, pastu pusing2 jap. Pas2 balik n tdo trus...sampai la kul 7pm. Phat kejut, mntak aku tlg isi kn air dalam balloons. Malas sebenarnye, tp xpela. Bukan slalu, lg pun seronok kot blh basah2 main air. Haha. Sume bnde utk the surprise dh siap. Then aku pn siap2, tukar baju, ikat rmbut elok2 then around 8pm cmtu kuar umah, g amik Chacha.
Lepas amik Chacha, kitorg trus g Diva tempat karaoke 2. Sementara Phat g crik parking, Chacha and I trun dulu sbb nk book room for karaoke 2. Ya Allahhhh, rimasnye! Byk nye org! Mat2 motor lg la bersepah. Rimas dgr bunyi dorg bt. Mcm2. Mse otw dr luar Giant nk ke dalam Diva tbe2 ade sorg mamat ni, jalan sebelah aku, dekat giler pastu stop depan ktorg cakap 'cun dowh awak, nk phone number blh?' Adehhh, aku ape lg, bile org bt mcm tu spontaneous aku akn trus dumbfounded. Jadi bangang n xtau nk bt ape. Terkelip2 smbil berdiri mcm tunggul. Nasib baik Chacha tarik. Phewww.
So, this and that jd. Karaoke la, pool la. Pas2 tbe mse utk bt surprise. Kite blindfolded kn Loloq and bwak die g park kt Sutera Merah 2. Pas2 main2 tepung la, baling2 water balloons tu pulak! Habis basah n badan penuh tepung. Damn it, paling pantang aku rambut aku kotor!!! Tp xpe la, seronok kot. I was having fun.
Sampai rumah, sume org balik umah Phat except Chacha. Die xleh blik lmbat sgt. So xpe, sampai umah aku mandi dlu, syampu ape sume, gosok sini sental sana. And jeng jeng jeng! Sudah berkilat semula, mcm pakai Axion. Haha. Try call beliau, tp x pick up plak. Tido dh kot, tp awal lg ni. Die penat sgt kot. Xpela, ksian die. RINDU.
Then ktorg 6 org lepak main card, main ceper sampai kul 6am. Phat, Diba, Syooc, Loloq, Syuk and I. Giler ah! Lapar and mengantuk. Then yg lain nk blik sbb dh pagi, so ktorg pesan kt Syooc suh belikn breakfast since die nk dtg blik pas2. Nasib baik mummy x de kt JB, lau x harapan la nk lepak2 mcm 2.
Lepas makan breakfast Syooc bwak 2, aku pun menidurkn diri.
End of Day Two.
2nd day di JB. Lepas beliau hantar balik pg 2, aku tdo dalam kul 7+ cmtu kot lau xsilap. Then bgn around 11 mcm 2 kot. Ke kul 10++ ea? Lebih kurg la. Walaupn dalam hati ade sedikit terasa sbb something yg beliau ckap sbelum masuk umah pg td, tp xpela. Malas la nk ungkit2 lg, kang beliau 2 majuk lg susah aku. Then kuar breakfast jap dgn Phat. Diba dgn Syooc x bangkit tdoq lg, so kite pegi dua org je. Bile balik umah mandi2 n siap2. Sbb Phat kate nk beli brg2 utk surprise bday Loloq malam ni. Biaselah aku, pas mandi siap awal2, mekap jap, bt rambut jap. Sume dh, tp budak2 ni x siap pape lg. Lagi2 Diba. Hampeh betul, lembap! Berjam siap.
Disebabkn malam 2 agak busy sbb byk preparation nk kne bt for the surprise, aku texted beliau ajak kuar jap petang 2 sbb malam 2 takut balik lmbat. X nak la ajak die kuar lewat2, kesian die. Penat lak kang. So siang 2 teman beliau lunch jap. Tapi...ade tapi jugak...ape la yg aku x puas hati lg ni...mse kuar 2 beliau ckap beliau xleh lme, xpela 2 aku blh pham sbb die keje. Tp yg x tahan 2 siap blh set time lg bpe lme nk kuar. Mne blh mcm 2, mcm x ikhlas je. Then mse makan beliau blik2 check time. Ehh, mcm terpaksa je. Ala sedihnye! Tp xpela, mungkin die x perasan kot die bt mcm 2. Walaupun beliau blh jd lebih peka dan sensitif thadap perasaan sy. Ntah asal, lunch kali ni mcm ade sikit boring. Die pn x byk cakap, diam je. Kurg eye-contact. N x tau la betul ke x, tp aku dapat rse mcm die cube elak everytime i tried to touch his hand. Perasaan aku je ke 2 ea? atau mmg betul mcm 2? Muke die mcm x excited je jmpe sy. Zul dh boring dgn i ke ea?
Sampai kt umah, sebelum kuar kete aku nk tnye something kt beliau. Tp soalan tu x blh nk kuar. Tsekat kt kerongkong, takut aku salah bg ayat n takut die salah interpret soalan tu. So sampai skrg soalan tu aku sorg je yg tau, n this question has been haunting me ever since. Adehhh, nk sgt tnye tp x blh. Takut. Segan.
Then beliau balik, smbung keje. Walaupun jmpe sekejapppp je, tp ok la 2 drpd x jmpe lgsg. Then kitorg 4 org kuar g beli brg2 utk surprise malam ni. Pegi Perling Mall beli cake, pastu pusing2 jap. Pas2 balik n tdo trus...sampai la kul 7pm. Phat kejut, mntak aku tlg isi kn air dalam balloons. Malas sebenarnye, tp xpela. Bukan slalu, lg pun seronok kot blh basah2 main air. Haha. Sume bnde utk the surprise dh siap. Then aku pn siap2, tukar baju, ikat rmbut elok2 then around 8pm cmtu kuar umah, g amik Chacha.
Lepas amik Chacha, kitorg trus g Diva tempat karaoke 2. Sementara Phat g crik parking, Chacha and I trun dulu sbb nk book room for karaoke 2. Ya Allahhhh, rimasnye! Byk nye org! Mat2 motor lg la bersepah. Rimas dgr bunyi dorg bt. Mcm2. Mse otw dr luar Giant nk ke dalam Diva tbe2 ade sorg mamat ni, jalan sebelah aku, dekat giler pastu stop depan ktorg cakap 'cun dowh awak, nk phone number blh?' Adehhh, aku ape lg, bile org bt mcm tu spontaneous aku akn trus dumbfounded. Jadi bangang n xtau nk bt ape. Terkelip2 smbil berdiri mcm tunggul. Nasib baik Chacha tarik. Phewww.
So, this and that jd. Karaoke la, pool la. Pas2 tbe mse utk bt surprise. Kite blindfolded kn Loloq and bwak die g park kt Sutera Merah 2. Pas2 main2 tepung la, baling2 water balloons tu pulak! Habis basah n badan penuh tepung. Damn it, paling pantang aku rambut aku kotor!!! Tp xpe la, seronok kot. I was having fun.
Sampai rumah, sume org balik umah Phat except Chacha. Die xleh blik lmbat sgt. So xpe, sampai umah aku mandi dlu, syampu ape sume, gosok sini sental sana. And jeng jeng jeng! Sudah berkilat semula, mcm pakai Axion. Haha. Try call beliau, tp x pick up plak. Tido dh kot, tp awal lg ni. Die penat sgt kot. Xpela, ksian die. RINDU.
Then ktorg 6 org lepak main card, main ceper sampai kul 6am. Phat, Diba, Syooc, Loloq, Syuk and I. Giler ah! Lapar and mengantuk. Then yg lain nk blik sbb dh pagi, so ktorg pesan kt Syooc suh belikn breakfast since die nk dtg blik pas2. Nasib baik mummy x de kt JB, lau x harapan la nk lepak2 mcm 2.
Lepas makan breakfast Syooc bwak 2, aku pun menidurkn diri.
End of Day Two.
Holiday ~ 1st Day in JB.
Friday.
After some talking with my parents, I finally managed to get their permission for a holiday to JB. How grateful and happy I am, Tuhan je tau. Finally after months, I got to see him. Just the thought of it makes my heart pumps thousands times faster. Dh terbayang2 dh all the good times yg akn we both share nanti. I was so looking forward to meet him. Butterflies in my stomach, usah dikenang la...flying around like never before. God I miss him. My muffin.
Phat fetched me at home pkul 2.30 pm mcm tu. Then we both g amik Diba, went to Phat's daddy house then bertolak ke JB by 6pm mcm tu. Kalau ikt hati, nk je btolak kul 2.30 tu jugak...tp dh Phat yg drive kn, so sabar jela.
We arrived in JB dalam kul 9+ cmtu kot...x ingt plak. Sampai2 trus g umah Syooc, Phat nk amik die. Sempat la jugak sembang2 dgn mama Syooc. Rajin btul bsembang, ktorg pun layan jela. Seronok kot dgr die cte itu ini. Then pas dh amik Syooc, kite trus g Stulang. Nak makan nasik gorg seafood, ok la jugak...Sedap. Mse nk dekat habis makan 2, tbe2 Loloq muncul dgn Farhana. Adeh, x mcm tkejut lak ktorg Farhana ade. Lantak la. Dalam hati ni gatal jeeee nk call Zul suh amik, tp biarpn dorg x kisah tp mcm x respect lak kalau blah cmtu je. So xpe, sabar jela. Pas makan, Syooc ngan Loloq ajak g shisha kt Taman Universiti plak. Adehhh, bpak die! Nk balik umah, nk mandi pas2 nk kuar jumpe kekasih hati sy!!! Hmmm, sebagai tanda respect terhadap Phat selaku tuan rumah, ikut jela...Babi btul!
Xpe2, gua sabar gua sabar...sejam berlalu, dua jam berlalu...wahhhh, ini sudah lebey. Aku dh xleh sabar, lantas mengtext Zul. Then bru tnye Phat, would she mind if I nk lepak dgn die. Phat kate die ok je. Damn! Kalau tau die x kisah, awal2 lg dh bgtau beliau. So xpe, directions after directions akhirnye beliau sampai. Wahhhhh, sungguh gumbira rasa d hati!!! Tp segan la plak, mcm bru first time jmpe. Haha. Dalam hati ni, Tuhan jela yg tau mcm mne bdebar die. Mcm nk tercabut jantung ni sbb bdegup dgn sgt kencang dan sgt cepat. Haih, I'm falling in love with him allllll over again.
Then, sume dh nk blah aku ikt beliau balik ke rumah beliau. Parents beliau xde, g wedding kt KL. Ksian die duk umah sorg2, kne bt keje umah sorg2. This and that. .....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
Bende dh jadi, nk menyesal pn xde gne. Then lepas sarapan, di mana beliau telah makan nasik lemak dgn aym gorg n telur. Adehhh, die makan mcm 2 pn aku blh lg meng-adore beliau. Menawan sungguh. Angau betul aku ni. Sejuk pg tu, rse mcm nk suh beliau hug supaya hangat ckit. Tp xkn kot, lg pun itu public place dan beliau tgh makan. Xpela. Heeee. I dont know why I'm behaving like a bitch, merungut itu ini depan die. I want to put on my best behaviour, tp lain lak yg jd. Haih, bodoh!
After breakfast 2, beliau sent me back to Phat's house.
End of Day 1.
After some talking with my parents, I finally managed to get their permission for a holiday to JB. How grateful and happy I am, Tuhan je tau. Finally after months, I got to see him. Just the thought of it makes my heart pumps thousands times faster. Dh terbayang2 dh all the good times yg akn we both share nanti. I was so looking forward to meet him. Butterflies in my stomach, usah dikenang la...flying around like never before. God I miss him. My muffin.
Phat fetched me at home pkul 2.30 pm mcm tu. Then we both g amik Diba, went to Phat's daddy house then bertolak ke JB by 6pm mcm tu. Kalau ikt hati, nk je btolak kul 2.30 tu jugak...tp dh Phat yg drive kn, so sabar jela.
We arrived in JB dalam kul 9+ cmtu kot...x ingt plak. Sampai2 trus g umah Syooc, Phat nk amik die. Sempat la jugak sembang2 dgn mama Syooc. Rajin btul bsembang, ktorg pun layan jela. Seronok kot dgr die cte itu ini. Then pas dh amik Syooc, kite trus g Stulang. Nak makan nasik gorg seafood, ok la jugak...Sedap. Mse nk dekat habis makan 2, tbe2 Loloq muncul dgn Farhana. Adeh, x mcm tkejut lak ktorg Farhana ade. Lantak la. Dalam hati ni gatal jeeee nk call Zul suh amik, tp biarpn dorg x kisah tp mcm x respect lak kalau blah cmtu je. So xpe, sabar jela. Pas makan, Syooc ngan Loloq ajak g shisha kt Taman Universiti plak. Adehhh, bpak die! Nk balik umah, nk mandi pas2 nk kuar jumpe kekasih hati sy!!! Hmmm, sebagai tanda respect terhadap Phat selaku tuan rumah, ikut jela...Babi btul!
Xpe2, gua sabar gua sabar...sejam berlalu, dua jam berlalu...wahhhh, ini sudah lebey. Aku dh xleh sabar, lantas mengtext Zul. Then bru tnye Phat, would she mind if I nk lepak dgn die. Phat kate die ok je. Damn! Kalau tau die x kisah, awal2 lg dh bgtau beliau. So xpe, directions after directions akhirnye beliau sampai. Wahhhhh, sungguh gumbira rasa d hati!!! Tp segan la plak, mcm bru first time jmpe. Haha. Dalam hati ni, Tuhan jela yg tau mcm mne bdebar die. Mcm nk tercabut jantung ni sbb bdegup dgn sgt kencang dan sgt cepat. Haih, I'm falling in love with him allllll over again.
Then, sume dh nk blah aku ikt beliau balik ke rumah beliau. Parents beliau xde, g wedding kt KL. Ksian die duk umah sorg2, kne bt keje umah sorg2. This and that. .....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
Bende dh jadi, nk menyesal pn xde gne. Then lepas sarapan, di mana beliau telah makan nasik lemak dgn aym gorg n telur. Adehhh, die makan mcm 2 pn aku blh lg meng-adore beliau. Menawan sungguh. Angau betul aku ni. Sejuk pg tu, rse mcm nk suh beliau hug supaya hangat ckit. Tp xkn kot, lg pun itu public place dan beliau tgh makan. Xpela. Heeee. I dont know why I'm behaving like a bitch, merungut itu ini depan die. I want to put on my best behaviour, tp lain lak yg jd. Haih, bodoh!
After breakfast 2, beliau sent me back to Phat's house.
End of Day 1.
Broken Hearted Girl
You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?
You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love enough to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day
I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl
Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day
I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl
Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh
I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl
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