it's been a while since the last post...malas nk tulis, byk bende nk gtau sebenarnye, tp tu la...MALAS...
hmmm...so, me m my boyfren...still going on, up n down...been thru many3 things...much to my own disbelief...
so, skang ni, i buat part-time job kat tmpat die keje, restoran seri melayu
ok, so...the first day dtg tu my bf brought me to meet the service supervisor kt ctu...my bf is a steward supervisor, so xde kne mengena la ngan die, as i amik part time as a waitress...ok, so i met the guy. the name of dis guy is dzul...he's kinda cute actually, that what was i thought at first...n he didn't know that my bf is my bf...ok, so he gave uniform to change to, n waited for me in front of the girl's locker room. ok so this n that going on, n without me knowing it, we both kinda flirt with each other n frankly, i kinda enjoy it...then 'the first-time' part time ended, n so did the flirt. back home, i analized his acts towards me n i have dis instinct that he actually liked me! (talking bout women's instinct here)...but yea, i completely ignored it as i have a bf
then the part time goes on n on n on n on...n so the flirt, n i think i have a crush on him...seriously, n i know die pn cmtu, it's so obvious la...
dis guy is totally, completely different with my bf. i mean, my bf is very rough, bahasa pn kasar, kuat jeles, etc...dis guy, otoh is very soft-spoken, n this n that...hehehe, now i sounded berat sebelah...i mean, rite now, i have many feelings inside me...i mean, when i'm with the other guy, i completely forgot about my bf n enjoy my time with him n he makes me feel what a waste of time i've had with my bf b4, when i'm with my bf, i think about the other guy n wonder how i got stuck with him, but when i'm alone, all by myself, i miss my bf terribly n wanted to be next to him...it is so fucking confusing u know...i can even understand myself...sometimes when i'm with the other guy, i even thought of dumping my bf...but still, i'm a sane person n it is stupid to leave my bf whom i know for almost a year, n i know everything about him, for a guy whom i barely know n just got to know for shortly two weeks...doesn't make sense rite...???
hmmm, i'm sooo freaking confused rite now...but i do know dat i love him so very much...
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